Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Someone is taking care of me...

I don't know who it is or why, but that is what they are doing. I wish I knew who it is, so that I could personally thank them and let them know that I do appreciate it. First, my truck gets repaired and it was taken care of, so they saved me that money. Second, my truck needed a tow, plus another repair and so far the tow--from what I can tell--is taken care of, because the transaction I had made is now disappeared from my statement. Next is not so much due to this person, but to the simple fact that I chose decent insurance and because of my deductible, I don't have to pay too much out of pocket. I'm glad that my truck will get fixed soon, though, I miss her terribly.

Other than that, none of my friends seem to be available recently--which is fine, they may in fact be busy. I wish I were that busy. Being busy keeps me from thinking too deeply. I haven't been busy at all lately, so my anxiety is up all the time and I'm thinking too much which makes me more sad and depressed.

I hate feeling depressed.

ETA (01/31/2014): The towing transaction magically reappeared. Computer glitches, FTW.

Sunday, January 19, 2014


My vehicle died and it was the fuel pump with the fuel pump module, which are expensive. These parts are so expensive that in order to buy them, you have to sign over your first born son (just kidding, they cost over $300). I have several people trying to help me along in this, which is awesome and hopefully we'll get it working again soon. I'm slightly agitated that I did not have very good decision making skills when I bought this vehicle, because it is used and what I should have done is bought a brand new car instead.

There are several mind-blowing things happening in the next three months and I am freaking out about it. I really need to get organized and handle this properly since I have enough time to get everything done. If I wait too long, I'll be rushing around and probably will forget several things.

I hope that I can make a decent decision on a certain aspect before the end of February, too.

Otherwise, I'm just as anxious as usual and freaking out everyday. My son is doing fine and growing up so fast. He's getting too big, I wish there was a pause button.

Saturday, January 11, 2014

My vehicle died.


I don't know what happened. I was driving when suddenly something changed or stopped or went off. It was like the engine just stopped. The lights were on, the battery is still working. But, when I try to start it, it doesn't turn over. So. I'm not sure what's wrong. Boss says it could be the fuel pump and BFF says maybe the alternator. Hopefully it's the alternator, since that's covered on my warranty. Otherwise the fuel pump will have to wait until Friday. I think my mechanic is going to charge me storage in the meantime, though.

Generally, I'm anxious over the "what if" things that are coming up. Bills, rent, insurance, gasoline...they'll all be piling up soon. I don't know what I'm going to do, especially now with my vehicle being dead.

Hopefully things will start looking up again?

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Happy new year!

Well. Nothing has changed since my last posts few days ago. New Year's Eve was pretty good. I took the boy with me to my friend's home and we then went to a mutual friend's house to celebrate. They drank wine spritzers, I had to drive so I stayed sober.

I made two serious resolutions, that are private ...and isn't it bad luck to share them....or is that just with birthday wishes?

I'm tired so I'll be going to bed.