Friday, May 31, 2013

Day 1: Hand Washing Flats Challenge!

Here is day one: Friday, May 31, 2013 (if you didn't know). I finished the wool soaker on Wednesday, then prepped everything to start today.

I have 24 large GMD flats, 3 (size 2) Thirsties covers, 3 Snappis and 1 hand-homemade wool soaker. Not surprisingly, DS only went through 4 flats today, not including the flat plus prefold that he is currently wearing  for sleep. He got sick either on Sunday or on Tuesday--I'm not sure which day, but those are the days that he was around other children (church and sitter). He didn't eat or drink much, I'm thinking that was because he's feeling terrible with this cold. On a side note: what's odd is when I called the sitter and told her that I would be keeping DS with me today because he had gotten sick, she said "huh, I noticed his nose was a bit drippy but since it was clear I thought it was just maybe allergies"--So, I guess since he had a runny nose it had to be allergies, without calling me to confirm? Well, I suppose I understand since people do lie and in order to "not get into trouble" they would say "Oh! Allergies! For sure!". Also, I only used one cover today since it was neither saturated nor pooped on.

Anyway, he's wearing the soaker I made. I did not lanolize it but it should be fine until I do get the opportunity to do that. The soaker doesn't fit well, though, the waist is kind of loose which looks weird to me...maybe I should have decreased stitches a bit more.

Anyway. Here are pictures of washing them in the kitchen sink:

Filled sink with hot water and ~2T (tablespoons) of Gain detergent:

Rinsing, just hot water:

Added vinegar to hot water for rinse (to make sure detergent is out):

No suds after agitating:

Clean rinsed and wrung out:

Each flat folded in half, twice to fit on hangers, plus cover:

DS wearing the soaker I made (you can see it doesn't fit well, sad.):

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Misunderstood and not listened to

When I try to express how I feel, what I'm thinking, or what I need--really when I try to express anything--90% of the time I'm not being listened to or the person I'm talking to doesn't understand what I'm saying or flat out doesn't care.

I was trying to explain to the professor that I'm working with the access office for accommodations but won't be getting a letter soon....then started to try and say, plus remember what the access office guy told me. Not only did I forget what I was told to tell my professor, but my professor wasn't even wanting to listen...he just kept repeating the same sentence "I need the letter or I can't do anything". Bah! I know that, but holy [profane word], can't you see that I'm having trouble getting my thought out?! It's [profane word] obvious when I have trouble expressing my thought, or thinking of the word I want to use, or finishing a sentence. Most people I talk to, that 10%, actually see the difficulty I have and they give me the much hated "pity look"  and tell me to take my time.

At least I waited until I was out of the classroom before I started crying out of frustration?

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Flats Hand Washing Challenge

Okay, I've decided to go do that. But, I won't start until the soaker I'm making is finished, it's close to done so I'll probably be able to start as early as Friday or as late as Monday. Either way, it'll get done and I'll document my progress here on this blog. This will be fun, I'll even include pictures!

I have 24 flats, I believe. Then, I also have 3 covers. I'm have the bare minimum but it should be doable. Hopefully it'll be just as easy as I expect.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

College started today!

Awesome. Class wasn't too bad, we were given basic information about what we're learning plus a quick review over it all, before the hard-core learning starts on Thursday. I have to register for an online program that our instructor is using. Hopefully FA covers it, if not it's no big deal. As long as I pay attention, take notes and am given permission to record his lectures, things should be good.

I had to drop the boy off to a sitter since DH had his own classes while I went to my classes. I'm glad that she had cameras set up so that I could watch him while in class. **No, I should not have done that because multitasking is not a good idea at this point in time, especially not during college classes.** I did miss my boy though, I cried from the moment I turned to exit the room until I got to the college building. I'm so pathetic, lol, I love my boy so much.

He really enjoyed himself, played with toys, ate all his lunch and socialized with everyone...he even helped her clean up the room of all the toys. He's so polite and helpful! I'm so proud of him. I wish that she would have been more open to cloth diapering but I understand so I bought him some sposies (Huggies to be specific, everything else breaks him out in rashes. And he needed to be slathered with A&D because he is that sensitive or allergic to sposies--which is surprising because he never broke out while in sposies full time from birth to 10 months. My poor boy with sensitive skin. He should be fine the rest of the time though, since I usually put him in cloth.)

I'm planning on starting the "Hand Washing Flats Challenge" soon, just as a personal challenge. Usually it's set up for a specific week in the beginning of the year by a cloth diapering website, I missed it but that's okay. Challenge independently accepted. Lol.

Friday, May 24, 2013


It's so frustrating when I try to ask a question and the person I'm asking seems to not understand what I want/need, or what I'm saying. It's even more frustrating when I can understand what I'm being told or asked.

I don't like this, not at all. I used to be good at understanding and having people understand me. Not anymore. Ridiculous.

Now, things are coming close, our schedules are running tighter and I'm getting nervous. My anxiety is rising because the time for organizing and planning is running short and there is so much to do...seems like a constant issue, now that I think about it. Hmm.

Friday, May 17, 2013


Heh heh heh, I passed the CNA test. In Ohio it's commonly known as the STNA test. Basically I passed the test given by the state to be a certified nursing assistant (or, State Tested Nursing Assistant). I am so very excited, I can't wait to start applying for work and hopefully getting hired soon. Slowly as everything is going (which is fine), most of the stuff I planned out is coming together within the timeframe I expected. This is great.

I can't wait to start working. I can't wait to start my college classes. I can't wait to finally be ahead in life!

This is great.

Sunday, May 12, 2013

PM&R, college, work.

I have a PM&R appointment on the 23rd, kind of sucks I can't go in earlier but the college representative said that everything should be fine. I know I need some kind of accommodation but seeing as I've never been disabled before, I have no idea what it is. Also, there are some little things that need to get done on my vehicle, but it's not urgent. Then, I'm thinking about new furniture for the Boy, but I won't be able to look at any until I start working--and that should be soon so, NBD. Gosh, I started filing away paperwork last week and still have not completed it...I need to go do that. There are other things that I would like to get but it's not life-or-death important, so I'll just write it all down and figure out a budget to get it all in time.

I'm so happy, I've been so happy lately. Unbelievable as it is, I am happy. I can't wait to update all of you on BBC when I get my test results!

Oh and:

Hi, creepy stalker! It's nice to know that regardless of how much you hate me, you're still thinking about me!

Friday, May 10, 2013

Test day!

Tomorrow is test day. I need to read my book and make sure I know what I need to in order to pass. Shoot. I have to go read.

Okay, I'm excited about test day, but it's a big test so I'm nervous. Boo.

Wish me luck, please :)

ETA (5/11/13, 8:46PM)
I got finished with the test at around 2 or 3-ish. I think I passed, it was not as difficult as I was expecting. I should go over the skills that I did to see if I did do something wrong. Since tomorrow is Mother's Day, I won't get my test results until around Wednesday to Friday and that's okay. On Monday, I'm going to go to the company that I applied to in order to give them the information they were requesting. I hope that I did pass this test (I think that I did, lol) so that I can apply to a facility and a hospital. Then, I can work in an actual building instead of someone's personal home. Also, I can't wait until starting college.

I'm going to miss being able to spend so much time with Pumpkin, the time away from him should lessen as I get closer to the end of my goals. Right? ...I hope so.

My dearest child,

I love you more than life itself. You are so smart, so handsome, so loving, so happy, you impress me every single day. You are my world. Everything I do, have done and plan to do, I am doing for you. I smile at you when I see you asleep. My heart warms when you come cuddle and hug Daddy or me. When you sit and figure something out that puzzles you, I become impressed by your determination, your concentration and the speed with which you work.

This week, you have been getting angry frequently because we happen to tell you "no". I understand, my love, it is frustrating when you want to do something and suddenly you can't, you're told to stop, you're told "no". It's completely understandable that you just want to figure something out or inspect it a little further. Everything is new to you and we understand. It's fun to learn how a remote works, or how a computer types, or what buttons to push to win that game on Daddy's PS3. I'm sorry, darling, that we don't let you go about pushing all the buttons you want. I know it's hard to hear the word "no".

Everyday that comes, you wake up happy. I hear you start to move around in your bed and you have one-sided conversations. You smile a big, toothy grin when we come to get you out of bed. You laugh and contort when we try to change your diaper. You pull and guide us by the hand around our home or in the store or at the park with a big smile and happy laughs. The conversations you have are always so emotional and emphatic.

Daddy gives you his old phone to play with and you like to throw it around so the battery comes out. Smart as you are (!), you saw Daddy put the phone back together twice and that was enough for you to learn how to put the battery cover back onto the phone. You are so smart! I've buckled you into your car seat and high chair enough times for you to figure out how to do it yourself! You pick up your toys, no one told you to! Where'd you learn that? You amaze me every day. We teach you things and don't even realize that's what we're doing.

It breaks my heart that I will have to start working soon and I'm in tears that I start college on the 28th. I won't be able to get you up and dressed in the morning when you wake. I probably won't see you before you go to bed. I won't be able to play with you often or for very long. I'm going to miss all of this extra time that I do have with you. All of this time that we've had together, I am happy for it and I'm sorry that it won't last forever. You are growing so fast, Pumpkin.

I love you with all my heart, my son.

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Time Management

I'm having a difficult time scheduling and managing my time, it's sad. Not only that, but I can't remember offhand what's already been scheduled and when--darned memory. At least I have my planner/agenda.

These next two weeks, I have job interviews. I also have the state test on Saturday, I'm excited and hope that I pass. We also have a few random appointments in between my interviews. Also, I start college on the 28th, which is great but I'm still a bit anxious about it.

My next PM&R doctor appointment is on the 23rd, the representative at college said that should be enough time to incorporate the accommodations that I'm going to need. I'm glad that I've improved/recovered so much since the accident last year. I seem to be getting better every day that passes. It's a bit frustrating that it's going so slow, but there's nothing I can do about that.

I also talked with my case manager and she helped me figure out what is going to happen with the changes that are coming so soon. I'm glad that there are some people who are willing and taking the time to help me, it was frustrating a couple of months ago when it was difficult to understand them and it seemed like no one wanted to help.